another bad WW day, ugh

i ate my regular points and then my extra 49 points and then at whatever i could find-it was like i was the Tasmanian devil and had to eat everything in sight. i ate half a bag of doritos, four pop tarts, a whole box of WW treats and I think that about covers it. i have got to get back on track, this is freaking me out, especially with the end of the month coming up. i've gained 7.5 pounds in the last two weeks. its amazing to me how easy it is to gain the weight, but how hard it is to lose it. while no more, i am back on track.

today was harder, but knowing that there is incentive to stay on track and not have to pay the fees if i go over my weight is very motivating. and i worked out like crazy yesterday, so that's good. lately when i cheat i overeat so much that i get sick and am too sick to work out.

and tonight i wanted to cheat so badly, but I didn't. i think i have to figure out my WW friendly foods that won't kill my daily points and will make me full. i'm on a new mission.

meanwhile, how are you guys????

rough times with my weight watchers plan

wow-the last couple of days have been SOOOO hard for me. I went off plan on Sunday (which was pre-planned) since I had a church luncheon and then my mom and sister and I went to Bonanza for supper, so i figured I would bounce back that day and get back in the grove-right? WRONG!! ugh it took me until Wednesday (three days later mind you) to get back on track. I think I need to stop having so many cheat days. they just make me realize how addicted to food I still am and probably will always be. and it also doesn't help that at work we know have pharmacy reps catering lunches every day, its just so frustrating to me how I have to be so meticulous about planning my meals or I just go right off the edge of the cliff. UGH! i am so annoyed. so usually i get home from my cheat day and work out, while I never felt completely full at Bonanaza, so that i think was the problem. so then im at home and all of the sudden i have a craving for Dairy Queen- and I haven't had DQ in FOREVER, so i take off for DQ which mind you is right across from Bonanza and I get a chocolate malt. SO YUMMY! then of course im still hungry and so i eat a bunch of cookies and finally get full.

so then yesterday i stayed on track with my lunch- I love when the reps bring food I don't like. I kept praying that it would be something I would like so I could have one more cheat day, but I really think this was God telling me that I needed to get back on track and did I listen "ABSOLUTELY NOT!!!"

so after work I eat all my pre planned meals and I am STARVING after that and I all of the sudden get a craving for PB M&M's and so I went to a store and got a big bag of them and a small bag of doritos- I guess to make myself feel better?!?!? and then i proceeded to eat both and felt so sick afterward, so now I'm thinking I'm going to give myself one more day, since its been so bad all day anyway, so I eat more odds and ends around my kitchen and it just felt so freeing.

and of course anytime I give myself a cheat day I feel as though I ignore God because I am so consumed with just eating that nothing else matters. It was like I was the tazmanian devil and everything in my pathway that was junk food was destroyed by me. I just need to remember how sick I felt after eating all that junk.

But wait, there's more!!!! so Tuesday i eat my normal salad at work and not the pizza that smelled UBER amazing that the reps bring, but I do sneak some doritos-ugh. so then right away I'm thinking "i'm cheating on day 3." so then after work i needed to go grocery shopping and so I bought a bag of sour cream and onion chips and then on the way home all I can think about is that darn bag of chips and so I get home and just tear open the bag and dive in-UGH!!! i cannot believe that I am doing this again. Then of course I get a craving for those frosted animal cracker cookies, so I decided that i might as well keep cheating and mind you my weekly weigh in is the next day. NOT GOOD.

so i went and got those cookies and practically killed the bag and got sick yet again. and of course I ignored God again because I was so consumed with getting my time with my junk food freedom to myself and not waste it on him-that makes me sick too.

so then this morning i woke up early and still felt sick from all of my overindulgence's from the past couple of days and not wanting to face the scale. I decided to weigh myself at home instead of at the store, because i am so embarrassed by how off the rails I got and i gained 5 pounds in three days. 5 POUNDS!!!! are you serious??? it took me so long to take this weight off, so then i get so annoyed at myself, but this time i am back to getting on track. I tracked all day today. HOORAY! and i even went to the meeting at the store this morning- i knew i needed too. but man does this going off the rails just drain me. I cannot believe that one of my nightmares came true and that i just went hog wild for three days, this is so unlike me, and makes me sick. I could definetly use some prayers, but so glad I got a major work out in today and am back on track.

losing weight and maintaining it is not easy at all. if it were easy everyone would be skinny. I hope this helps you know that you are not the only one who has weight loss problems, its everyone. Stay on plan though!!!!! and please pray for me. Thanks!

hello everyone- i am alive and kicking!!

sorry i've been MIA forever!!!! but I'm here and things are going good. Work is okay, loving my co-workers! my apartment is amazing-still unpacking (crazy right- I've been here 4 months and still organizing and unpacking, but i only have one box to unpack!) Hooray!!

and this weekend i got a lot done around the apartment and then this morning my friends and I went to our church and they had a festival after the services (sort of an amusement park type of thing!) which was so fun! and i ate SOOOO badly! oh well, i LOVE my cheat days!

after that i went home because sister was home and we went shopping with mom and then out to eat at Bonanza-let the cheat day continue! now i am feeling sick-ugh. i am so upset at myself, i either track really well or go so far of the deep end, it just stresses me out so i worked out a lot tonight and am reading what the bible says about gluttony. i just hate that you need food to live, it would be so helpful if you didn't. prayers needed that i get back on track tomorrow.

also DWTS starts tomorrow night! HOORAY! so excited for a new season!

lot's of fun things coming up this fall-going to Camp Lebanon with Stephanie and going to a Christian concert with Lisa, and just went to a concert put on by one of our worship leaders at church-love his voice- oh and next sunday im going to the twins game with Sara (although they are having a bad season, yet again, i still want to at least go to one game, so that will be fun! YAH!

hope everyone has a great week! hoping to have a house warming party soon! fingers crossed! Toodles! :)

FABULOUS weekend with the family!

it is so nice knowing that I have a place to go to, to get away from the madness. i just love that my parents still live in the same house and hanging out with them is so much fun-dad and i did a lot of disney planning-YAH! so excited, but so tired just thinking of how much we are trying to cram in!! LOL!!

hope your weekend was awesome as well-and just think next weekend is a LONG weekend for labor day! HOORAY!!!!

today was AMAZEBALLS!!!

hooray!!!

its friday, its friday! work went great! and i even worked an extra shift so my next paycheck will rock! woot woot!!

after work mom and dad dropped by with goodies-i love when they come by and they always bring bananas! LOL!!!

after they left i headed home (funny right!?!) i just need a weekend at home to just relax by the pool and do nothing! imma so excited!!!! lazy weekend by the pool-YES please!!!!

have a fabulous weekend everyone and remember next weekend is going to be a long one! YAH!! love that! :)

FANTASTICALLY sunday!!

it started out super at church this morning worshiping God with great music and be surrounded by my girls-Lori, Darlene, and Stephanie. Then I saw Susan from work-but she works at the NW campus- and it was SOOOOOO great to see her and meet her hubby!!!!

after church i seriously worked out because this afternoon was our work picnic, and i knew i was going to be cheating, so i did that and then cheated- and it was so yummy, but now i feel so sick in my tummy. remind me to stop having cheat days as i always go way too far-ugh!!!! i wish i could tell when i am full instead i eat all my points and still feel hungry or eat way too much. ugh, ugh, ugh.

but anyway-the picnic was fun and we got double prizes because not a lot of people were there-YAH for us!!!

after the picnic i decided to pay a visit to my parents since the picnic was near Kimball and i got to pick from my mom's garden and my mom got me the cutest pair of brown trouser pants and a super cute and sophisticated brown hat-and i can pull of a cute hat! YAH!!!!

so fun to catch up with my fam-especially because baby brother is moving next week-i'm so going to miss him and not just because he's the tech savy one in the family-although he pretty much is! LOL!!!

and now i am laying on my couch trying to recover from today-no more cheat days for awhile! Let's have a great week everyone!!!!

i am so sorry its been way TOOOO long and i mean this for realz!!

life has been CRAZY busy but CRAZY good!!! things have gotten a lot better since i over indulged that one day-boy was it rough to come back, but i am back on track! YAH! my pity party of one is OVER!!!

work has been good-although tomorrow I am picking up an extra shift-it could potentially be a 14 hour day! YIKES STRIPES! prayers and well wishes would be appreciated! its nice to know that I am figuring things out, i've been there 8 months know, that is just CRAZY!!!!

things are great at my apartment, i just cleaned yesterday-boy do I have to clean a lot and its just me!!! but i just love my new place, still decorating, but hope to have a house warming party soon!

also excited because i have lot's of stuff planned this fall! Stephanie and I are planning on going to Camp Lebanon in October and we are going out to Sioux Falls, SD to see our friend Brenda! YAH! so much fun! we might even take a train, which ive never been on before!!!

and i've been getting tan (ish!) which is just crazy to me, because most of you know i either burn or am pasty white! LOL!

so things are good here, how are you guys? can you believe its almost fall? CRAZINESS! where has this summer gone!!! updates please!!!!