wow-today's message was AMAZING!

and I mean that in a good and scary way....

I will post it when it goes on the website, I think Thursday??

It was about witnessing, which is something that I've always struggled with. I'm uber shy and quiet, so the thought of having to bring people to Christ gives me a lot of anxiety. I like to think of myself as Moses in the Bible and that when he was too scared to lead the Israelites out of Egypt, God sent Moses his brother Aaron, which is kind of ironic for me because my sister Jackie is someone that I've always looked up to (and not just because she's older, because I'm taller than she is!) but because of how Godly she is. So that story really resonates with me, big word for me right sister (she's also the writer/grammar police in the family).

Then close to the end of the message our pastor asked who have you brought to Christ in the last 3-6 months, and my goal has always been to bring someone to Christ. For awhile it was to bring a specific friend to Christ, but our friendship ended a while ago, but I still keep praying for the change to baptize someone that I bring to Christ.

I feel like a bad Christian for not having brought someone to Christ, this is a goal for me though. I do hope that my actions can make me stick out, but I know I need to witness. Does anyone else struggle with this? My family have even bought me Christian clothing, but I just feel like I don't know enough about Christ (even though I've known him my whole life) and because he is not a physical human that I can introduce people to, that is what I struggle with.

What about you? Or is it just me?

THEN...... the pastors wife was talking about how she donated the price of another ticket for her sons field trip and just wrote on the check "scholarship for another student" and it just made me feel so stingy. I've always been very careful with my money, but I know I need to work on this.

Wow, this message was so good that it still has me digesting it and I heard it this morning and its 11:30 at night. I'm gonna post it when its on the churches website. I would love to get your opinion about it.

PS I do think its great that a message has such a profound affect on me and is making me think different things.... so let the discussion begin!

Hard work pays off

It's amazing to me how drained I can feel at the end of a work week. This Friday was different though because one of our physicians assistant was retiring. very sad since she is wonderful, sometimes we as receptionist are not treated very well by other staff, and I've always liked working with this PA. She's very nice and makes sure to explain what I need to do to help her patients.

These last couple of days she has been having lunch with staff just to say good bye, etc and I didn't get the chance to eat with her, so I asked a coworker if I should pull this PA aside, just to say thanks for everything and enjoy retirement. My coworker said that I should, so I pulled her aside and she was so complimentary about my work ethic and how much she has enjoyed working with me. and she gave me a hug, my coworker told me that she wasn't hugging other people over her lunch farewells, and I almost started to cry. It feels so good to be recognized for your hard work. That is why I work as hard as I do. I tend to be very guarded and quiet at work, just to avoid drama, so to even approach this PA was kind of intimidating, but I'm so glad I did.

We're gonna miss you EBW, enjoy retirement! Thank you for being so great to all of your staff!

Anxiety

I think I've had anxiety since I was a young kid. I've always been really shy and quiet and still am to this day.

Well sometimes my anxiety can turn into a panic attack and my family are usually the people who help me out when it gets that far for example:

last year I got my annual certified letter from my landlord telling me that my rent was going to increase, this was going to be my third year living there, so I figured it would just go up $10 like it did the year before, but it went up $25 and my parents were in Florida. I freaked out, full on tears imaging that I was going to be homeless, when I have a panic attack I imagine the worst case scenario, I'm not sure why I thought I would be homeless as I know my parents would ALWAYS let me move back home before it even got close to the point, when I had my chest pain I immediately thought that I was going to have to have emergency triple bypass surgery (i'm so dramatic) so I called my parents and first made sure they weren't at Disney World aka the happiest place on earth before I started crying and when I cry it turns into full run on sentences and then dad goes to mom "Here you talk to her!" LOL! he's so funny, but yes my momma is the best at calming me down. I don't remember what she said, but she is definitely the voice of reason in my life.

Well today I got notice about a certified letter, and of course I went to the wrong post office. I was hoping I could pick it up at the USPS that wasn't as crazy busy as the one next to me, nope I was wrong and had to go wait in line at the one I hate. GRRRR. side note-if you know me personally, you know I like to go to stores right when they open, go off my list and get out... so I got my letter from my landlord and I couldn't open it, I was that nervous.

I had to drive all the way to my parents house (20 minute drive mind you) and have my dad open it. so glad that I got it while they were home. Only to find out my rent is only going up $10/month this year and then dad was like "now you have more money to go toward your 401K". LOL! my dad is like my financial guru. Although now I am waiting on my hospital bill and my car is not behaving. oh man. I need a rich guy. any doctors or lawyers out there?? Joe Mauer where are you?

don't get me wrong though, I am very proud of my financial situation I just freak out over my budget and finances in general and especially because everything increases every year, like rent, cable, phone, ugh, so annoying!!

#myfinancesrock #myfinancialadvisorisawesome #hesmydad